Have you ever tried losing your belief? The feeling of lost and disappointment get the better of you and somehow you feel no point in holding to what seems like so precious.

I've make a decision to go back to school instead of insisting on going for the long planned trip.

The reason I smiled, the reason I live for right now and the meaning of everything - Thanks for knocking the sense out of me – but I’m still choosing to live in lies.

I don't know why some people can be so mean to others...

Thank God! I still feel warmth from our Junsu-ni though.

i guess it's every parents' dream to see their kids graduate from primary schoo, secondary school, polytechnic and university. that maybe explain why my parents seems dissappointed about missing my graduation day last friday because i didn't told them about it. But on the other hand, they didn't even ask or mention anything despite the fact that i hung my graduation gown in their room for almost a week. It seems that we no longer talk alot like how we used to. I will always remember the day dad threw that damn HP charger on the bed when i insisted him to exchange cellphone with me a few days before i depart for Bangkok last december. How he wanted to have the better camera to bring to China with Mum but doesn't want me to have the better camera phone.

So be it. I guess things like that really make me very very very upset because I'm sensitive when it come to such matters.

Today i went Expo for some good bargains at the Popular Fair, Adidas Fair and Robinson Fair..... spend some good bucks on good stuff........



Anyway.. the point is to say i then went to Circuit Road for Dinner where i saw someone least expected there; on my way home. That someone is someone i never thought i will ever meet again after so long. That someone is someone whom i don't really know but used to see so often. I must say he really really reallllyyyyyyy changed alot so i was practically looking at him unsure yet look away thinking i must have made a mistake. But he came over and walk pass me saying 'From Bartley...' (that's what Bartleyans are fond of doing when they want to acknowledge their schoolmates. haha!) and i just smile cooly while replying "You are Nirmal..." and he was saying "Eh! You still remember" and i said "ya... haha.. HI!"

Yup.... that is the encounter i had today..... hahahaha..... pretty unexpected huh....

Today that stupid colleague aka The Other Colleague aka BFF is driving me crazy by repeating that one in a million song from the moment I step into the office at 9am all the way to 7pm. Pure torture! And if listening to the song for a zillion times is not bad enough, she still has to sing with her pathetic voice.

Thank god I was kept alive with an earpiece.

Anyway, I have a pretty nice supervisor who is the best of the best I’ve ever meet. This afternoon I turn over to his desk and he happens to turn around to face us so I wave to get his attention.

Supervisor: Emm… (he was about to call BFF beside me)
Me: Eh! *wave*
Supervisor: *blur* Huh?
Me: Erm… I cannot come to work this Friday.
Supervisor: ……………. *still blur*
Me: Cuz I having graduation.
Supervisor: ………………*blur blur*
Me: So I cannot come.
Supervisor: *think*
Me: …… (waiting for his reply)

What he was about to reply was really so unexpectedly.

Supervisor: (he looks at me and smile)
Me: (what does that mean?)
Supervisor: I also won’t be coming. I’m on leave!

Deh! Why is he telling me? I’m not the boss. Anyway… here comes my OFF day!

A boring Public Holiday slacking at home, I couldn’t think of any constructive things to make this day a meaningful one. So… I’ve decided to talk alittle about our No Charisma JunSu-ni.

Reason to why him…



He can smile OH! so cutely for others.



He can be all cutely with others.



He can act so dorky.



He can look silly yet loveable...


He whine like a kid does.....



He also enjoy eating candy floss at the amusement part...








But most importantly:




When others is not seeing, he still stares blankly like I always do. Look at his brows..... His frown hidden from the rest and it makes me realize he is just like anyone of us and that's how i fall so in love with him. Not the glamorous but the ordinary Junsu-ni.

I’ve been neglecting our Junsu-ni for some time even since I’m spending more time in the office and I reach home feeling bushed. Totally have no time for him.

In case some people (eg. CT) say I’m becoming a flirt, I must announce to the whole world that it is still our Junsu-ni that I LOVE!!!!



If there is something I have to lose now, it will definitely not be you! ^.^

Kid: Teacher Teacher.... how do you use the vending machine?
Teacher: Press here and the drink will drop out
Kid: Ok.... Lend me $1 to buy that drink up there....








Esplanade have a drink that sells Japan and Korea can drinks...... It's a scam because i bought a few of it home....!!!!!!

Junction 8 just had their Food Court renovated.... very nice place with very 'nice' pricing...... but the food was ok with the ambience... it's kinda good deal for food courts but it will be perfect without the crowd.....


Awww..... CT love the uncle!!!

this is the donut Not Very Friendly Collegue treat me quite some time ago..... And i guess that's why i was buy over by her.... kekeke.....

Today is such a screwed up day because one of my colleague is on "MC". So i'm covering most of her job and i've been pestering Not Very Friendly Colleague because there are alot of things i still don't know. Apparently things that i know she doesn't and things that she know i doesn't. How clever is The Other Colleague for doing that.

And that stupid Mr B. so damn bastard!

I’m exhausted after a long day at work and I don’t wanna stare into the computer screen at home even after work which explains why I haven’t been updating as regularly as before.

I’m getting a camera soon perhaps in the coming roadshow next week or I shall wait till IT Fair. By the way, daddy didn’t reject my ‘invitation’ for camera sponsorship. Hahaha~!!!!!! ^.^


Anyways.... I'll just share with you what are some of the things i do during OT...





Look at the mess invention I've come up with one fine day for sorting out documents according to alphabetical order. it's all over the table and *erhem* floor! *.*

I strongly believe that some words don’t have to be spelled out so clearly but I will if insisted.

Dedicated to someone who used to be special but that is if you get to read this entry.

At this point in life I will no longer act like I used to and bla like a bitch over such small matters - what’s more when I think there is no such need for it.

Everyone is mature enough to think for yourself over what you really wanna do in life and not just pause and ponder on worthless silly stuff and continue leading meaningless life. 'Grab the Chance' is what used to be the motto I have in life and i think i've made at least a lil' effort on my part. Life goes on with or without the things you want – sad to say but that’s life.

I know at this point of time someone is disappointed with me but I’ll make a comment on that “Sorry to say you have been a disappointment all these while.”

So I guess it makes both of us equal now.